Day the first aka December 23rd

So this is my first step into a bigger world, really it is. I've reflected back on the entirity of 2008 and found the whole year to be a vast and distinct dissapointment. I can count the things I've done on one hand. listed by time spent:

1) Play World of warcraft
2) Sleep
3) get into debt
4)work

And that sums up the vast majority of my life over the last year.

Over the last 3 days or so I've been in imense pain from trying to cleanse my body of the many toxins I've subjected it to. So great was the pain in fact that I couldn't even bring myself to focus on World of Warcraft, which as you can see has become kind of my Boyfriend or bad business partner or second home or whatever you want to call it.

Anyhow, as I laid in bed and the time slowly passed, I realised just how much time there really is in a day, how much time I've wasted in front of a flickering screen when I could have been doing almost anything else. I felt somewhat liberated. on the 3rd day when I was finally feeling better I played WoW. It felt empty and allthough I began to get back into my groove, I felt a pressure in my head and a weight creep back into my soul.

Earlier today I played some more WoW and felt similar things. I finished playing for the night and laid in bed. contemplating life and what I've really wanted to do with it. As I mulled this over I realised that being a slave to a video game was never one of my life goals, and yet somehow that's exactly what had happened.

So here I am at the cusp of 2009, I find myself out of shape, in debt and without a life. I've neglected friends and family and the world as a whole so that I could carve out a second life in a world where no one will remember me a week from when I stop playing, or if they do it'll be something like "I wonder what happened to Mordax, Lets go do a heroic instance!!"

So, pulling this all together, I have a goal, a plan even, for a happier much more productive and eternally better 2009. To put it into simple bullet points it goes something like this:

1)Get in shape
2)Find a Social group & a Fitness group
3) Find a "good" job (aka one that fits me and that pays well, none of this data entry crap)

Today I've put into motion the turning of the first few cogs in my plan. This first thing will make anyone that knows me gasp and/or possibly pass out...






I CANCELED MY WORLD OF WARCRAFT ACCOUNT!!!

It's true, right before I made this blog I canceled my account. It's paid up until the 10th of January, but other than wrapping a few things up with some friends I've made there I won't be playing it anymore. It's consumed far too much of my time, life, soul, energy, etc.

In fact I'm planning on giving up on gaming as a whole. It may take me awhile to readjust and I'm sure I'll go through withdrawl, but I'll be better for it.

Continuing on with step one though. I'm going to be following a diet of raw foods that is pretty much Veagan. I know it sounds drastic but I'd started it with Sheri and felt amazing (until I did the whole liver cleanse thing). Looking on the internet I've found some very very amazing results from other people that have switched to raw foods, I'm actually rather excited for this.

The next part is one that might make a few people question my sanity (if you allready haven't at this point) considering the area that we live in. But I've decided I'm going to sell my car. Since I've gotten it I've felt obligated to drive it so that I could justify paying as much as I do to own it. as a result I've fallen into the All-american trap of, Wake-up, get in car, drive to work, sit down. And then do it all in reverse. Of course this will limit my mobility and will mean either I'll have to find work close to home or else a home close to work or something along those lines.

Now part two of my whole new years/new life thingy that I'm doing. I have part of that figured out. I'm going to join the SLC Men's Choir. I think it'll make a great social group, it helps that it's mostly a gay men's choir, so there's a chance I might be able to find some people to date ^^. But just making new friends and expanding my life is the main goal, that would just be a nice added bonus.

Fitness group, I'm not sure what I'm gonna do there. I'm not really sports, who knows maybe I could learn to like a sport, but I don't see it happeneing really. Stranger things have happened I suppose.

And of course, we come to number 3, the big mystery. I hate job hunting, I really truly do. You'd think I'd have gotten used to it considering that I switch jobs about every other year. I just haven't found the place that I feel like I belong at. Obviously that's not very important to alot of the people out there. I understand a job is a job, but I'd like to think that there is a job that I'll wake up and think "OMG! I get to go to work!", instead of "UG, I wish I didn't have to go to work today." I have confidence that it's out there and that I'll find it some day. But for now I need something so that I can become independant. Right now I'm very much a leech and that doesn't sit well with me at all.

So those are my plans for a brighter future. I think sheding my dependancy on gaming will be one of the biggest and most important steps I'll be making. That and switching to a healthy diet. I have every confidence that the rest will fall into place as well. I plan to write in this at the end of each day. Then I can look back this time next year and see what exactly I've done and where I mistepped.

Anyhow, Merry christmas me and whoever else reads this, and here's to a bright and shiny 2009!!